Enjoy it till it lasts

Most of my friendships with people have one thing common, they are half-neglected. Sometimes, they are connected with each other but many a time they aren't.

They go through all ups and downs, unexpected storms, getting wild, proliferating anyway they wish to. But the important question remains, whether they will survive or wither away.

Few of them withered away even before they blossomed, leaving us handicapped and forcing us to believe that everything in life comes with an important tag 'best before this date' or like a hot cup of coffee which you enjoy it till it lasts...

Truly speaking, no one, no one gives a damn when you are sad or just waiting to explode your emotions. Just like time waits for no one, even world doesn't stop for us ever. We need to think about our world, the world which we have weaved for ourselves. The belief that this small proportion of our world exists with the notion of living happily ever after will crash someday.

But, aren't we acting selfish when we expect our friends to be close to us all around the clock? Aren't they act being selfish when they let us cry all alone because they are busy crying about their own world? I presume, all are selfish, then why complain? Being selfish is a basic characteristic of human nature, really!

Perhaps, we should stop expecting.
Perhaps, we should stop complaining.
Perhaps, we should also stop bothering.
Or maybe, like one of my friend messaged me yesterday that we shouldn't think tooooo much....

But again, old habits don't die easily, do they?

PS: After long long time, it's good to be back. Feels like being myself again :)

Happy Birthday MY BEST FRIEND

Finally, the day has arrived when she would be celebrating 23 glorious years of her journey called LIFE. A very happy birthday to my best-est friend and lots of wishes for your future.

I want to thank god for giving me her friendship which I would like to preserve and cherish it forever.

Few lines for you..

I remember,

how you waited patiently for me at Sahara Mall to return from office and share sweets...

how difficult it is for you to ignore my phone...

how you shouted at me for not accepting your call during the midnight of my bday...

how you use to write long long long mails whenever there was tension in our relationship...

I remember,

how sad you were when I just skipped your bday and called u in morning...

how you hated me for not calling on your bday

how your eyes lit-up when I gave the pop-up card...

how you loved me more than I could have

I remember,

how we both use to apologize with each other after the fight was over...

how you sent me your pic in blue shirt and I kept on praising you ;) ...

how you confessed our relationship with the word "HELL"...

how we roamed around the streets of Delhi eating all the possible cuisines...

I remember,

how we ate bagels at Hauz Khaas...

how you fought with me...

how I use to irritate by expressing my love for the girls around...

I remember,

how you use to doubt me having relationship with my colleagues...

how you were dying to eat omelette and talked for an hour about it...

how you got nostalgic by looking at RJ number plates...

how you cried when I departed from NZM station...

And today,

you still enjoy chatting late night with me... 

you still call me first whenever u gets scared at night...

you are still with me when I was busy and moving on with life...

you still fight with me but loves me back...

you are a wonderful soul...

As you continue your journey in life, I hope that you will cherish all these memories and look forward to making more.

LOVE YA DEAR.

Miss u.

PS: From today, I will be posting regularly :)

Everyone has a story within.

some are sealed, never to be opened
some are afraid of prejudice and reactions
some walk away from the crowd
some are frightened of rejection
some are happy with their concealed existence
some celebrate in their privacy
some wants to be forgotten
some are simply ignored
some dont' dare to reveal themselves
some too painful to be recalled
some too selfish to be shared
some prefer, just to play 'hide and seek'
some wait for the right person to 'tag'

But then, there are those sagas which are free flowing,
like the coffee which turns bitter day by day,
like the tears which rolls down your cheeks when you are sad,
like the cold which sends shivers across your spine on hearing something scary,
like the breeze which pass through your face on a windy afternoon,
like the joy in your voice when you are pleased with life,
like the rush of your heartbeat when you hug someone you love,
like the agony of separation you can't express when missing someone special,
like the familiar feeling knocking your mind when you experience deja vu,
like the experience which deports you back into time when it 'used to be',
like the magic moments which still visit you from time to time,
like the thoughts which kept you awake even after a long tiring day,
like the dreams which still dance before your eyes when you sleep,
like the hopes which gets ruined everyday but still not dead,
like the flowing air leaving its beautiful scent wherever it go,
like the feeling which neither can be explained nor interpreted.

YES, everyone has a story within.

Because YOU matter!

In my life, there are few people to whom I 'still' call bcoz somewhere deep down inside, I don't want those relationships to be ruined. Sometimes the calls made are obligatory & sometimes to just show that I am concerned about their well-being.

Many of them live in the illusion of being too important and special, that they never answer calls & then claim to the world how they are so COOL and wanted, that people call and yet they never answer. It's hilarious and a little disgusting too.

Still, I think people who DO care, will hang in there and understand. Many times, I hang on to such relationships for too long, not because there will be no one better in my life. It is just because I DO care and I don't want to regret that I gave up so early.

Everyone needs their time. Sometimes I need mine, sometimes you need yours. We all deserve the time that we can spend in solace. But, ill-treating people in the name of 'being busy' and then showcasing your arrogance as a victory is pathetic.

Till now, I have lost a lot of people due to ego's of their. I can't satisfy your ego for long. For me, it is all about relationships and affection. As long as you respect the fact that I am present and as long as I CAN respect you, I will stay firmly, else I will leave.

I am very well aware that even I am NOT special, but I do have a heart that believes in being nice to people and caring for them. I am sure this is the thing which people in my life will miss, when I am gone. Everything else about me is total shit (^_~)

Being cold is one thing, but it's not cool. If you are proud of it, I feel sorry about that.

I cherish such people in my life, coz MY people mean to me. I am going stand by them, as long as I CAN.

Heart That Beats....

Where will you go, if you love someone so deeply and crazily, that you don't even know who you are anymore? How can you digest this feeling that you are just a passing fling for them?
How can you console your broken heart that it is fine NOT to be loved in return?
How can you find the answers to questions which entangles you within? Why I have so much love inside my heart, when I don't have anyone to share with? Why is it always me who suffer & sacrifice?

Too many questions? Too many why's?? Too many how... What would you do then?


They suggest you to move on. But think again, can anyone ask u to move on, or stay? It's your decision, you move on when you want, You stay only if you really want to.


They say ,Love yourself first & then think about others. You say - "I don't believe in fooling around, it is either me or them, that I can love at a time."
While you are too busy loving them, how can you cheat & start loving yourself in the process?


Why can't God make those we love, love us too? Why this world has to be so cruel??? Why does a loving heart always bleed? Why is it always you who try hard to mend it??


In my 21 year lifetime, I have heard these questions many times, I have asked some of them and I have answered some of these. I have also assured myself at times, that someday I will start walking again, in fact running again... I have told others too, and even my heart, that what matters is who YOU love, Not everyone has the privilege to be loved in return.


Still, no one knows the correct answer. They say - Time heals. Does it,really? It seems funny. Time just kills, instead of healing.


If you really want your wounds to heal? Just leave them alone... for long, so all they leave behind is a scar in your heart.


P.S.: Thanks for reading my post. Lately, I was busy with my work, so was not regular with postings. Henceforth, will post regularly :)
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