Simply Goodbye!!!

Hello,

This is Raunak Jain, 1/2th engineer so far. Please don't feel sorry for me, coz when you will read this letter, I would be dead and your sorry wouldn't help my soul. By the way, let me make it clear, no one forced me into this. I, finally figured this on my own. I will be sorry that I had no one to stop me from doing this.

I know this letter would won't matter a lot and would be thrown in the drains where my life had always been for 20 years.

I am Raunak Jain and this is the end of my story. If you are interested in the reason behind my death, then please stop reading because I have nothing worth saying ahead.

Did you noticed the yellow light over the traffic signal? Might be you have missed it most of the time. The only light you might have encountered were red or green. My life have always been that yellow light, not the red which no one likes and try to avoids neither the green one which bring smile and hope on those sweat dipped frustrated faces. But yellow, mostly missed during the journey of life.

I was never a good, entertaining speaker. So friends were something I was always deprived of. I grew up with that big school bag, twice my weight and scratching my name over the last bench. I use to stare silently at my name and exchanged my boring little life.

I never remember laughing. They say, you need to have feelings. No one taught me feelings; no one gave me hope, so grievances never visited me. Honestly, I preferred being alone.

I am Raunak Jain and I never had the day of my life.

She is happy with new friends. Once she said she will always be with me. I guess she forgot. But neglecting past is difficult in my case.

Those 1 year with her was when life ignored being pathetic with me.

She loved my silly questions when I don't understand a situation. I knew the questions were miserable. But she always had pity in her eyes for me when I asked while scratching my head.

I was happy. But, she didn't stammered the day she said that she wants to be single. She always loved someone else and pity can never win over love. So I was a LOSER once again.

I am Raunak Jain and I have always seen her even in the darkness of my life.

I tried a lot, really, a lot! I tried to love. I had 21 online friends on my gO.Ogle talk whose real name I don’t know and 34 whom I have never met. But they are cool, they find me interesting, they gave damn to whatever I say, even my brain f**kin PJs. For immediate solution to my problems, some also passed on link of varied porn sites. It’s funny how sometime a porn site is solution to all your problems.

I am Raunak Jain and I kill my hope everyday.

Let me tell you, assassinating hope is not as cruel as you think. In this fast moving world, hope dies every single day and slowly this feeling gripped onto my nerves.

I tried to spend 20 years of my life with Raunak Jain, and trust me, I am sick of him.

I am bored of the fact that on my birthday only email I get is from Viagra representative offering 70% discount for a year.

Surely, I hate people committing suicide. Even you hate such people, I guess. Idiots do that, correct? But suddenly, one morning you realize that you have screwed up entire life and people always termed you 'FLOP IDEA', what will you do?

For now, I don't regret my life; I am just the unlucky piece of paper who never got through the lucky draw. Life ,now, is much more annoying, than soothing.

I am Raunak Jain and this time I say Sayonara.

PS.: My apologies and best wishes to my best friend who lost all believe on me. I am a loser, again. Hope time would heal.

M sorry, but I would be off from blogging for few months. Catch ya soon. :)

<----- This is just a fiction, RAUNAK JAIN never existed. Just thought to write such note ----->

SIMPLY LIKE THAT!

If you say that word again,
I will tell you a tale.
A story of two soul,
of smiles expressed and frowns shared,
of friendship which amplified everyday,
of memories so casually created,
of holding backs and shaking hands,
of coffee confabs and secrets shared,
of a touch of surprise and a sense of pride,
of blossoming love and immature minds,
of angelic feelings and chromatic dreams,
of blissfully gazing over calm moonlight,
of silent thoughts and sleepless nights,
of two stranger who became friends, simply like that!

If you say that word again,
I will tell you a tale.
A story of the same two soul,
of their life took a turn,
of pleasantries exchanged and tears suppressed,
of losing bonds day by day,
of memories screaming out to be erased,
of turning backs and parting ways,
of blundered conversations and stupid secrets,
of a sense of pain and a tinge of regret,
of dwindling love and unconscious minds,
of selfish feelings and broken dreams,
of shedding tears over punishing moonlight,
of tainted thoughts and different worlds,
of two friends who became strangers, simply like that!

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Friend's ever.

 Not very often does it happens,
That someone enters
And touches your life
And leaves behind memories
That you never forget.

I donno how ,when and why,
You entered my life
A place in my heart
a thought in my thoughts.

There was something very special
A very special friend I saw in you
But as it goes
Not everyone gets what one expects
And expectations always hurt.

I know that our friendship
Is so strange ,so eccentric
Don't know why…
God ever made our paths cross.

I know we can never be friend's forever
But when I look back
My Book of Reminiscences,
It brings a sweet smile,
A tear or two.
Makes me believe,
Our friendship was a sweet mistake.

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Mizzlin Raipur...

Drizzles around,
Awesome environment,
Orange color spreaded all over,
sweet smell of mother earth,
cool breeze flowin through,
hot coffeee in my hand,
birds flyin back to their nest,
soothing music filled ambiance,
mind energized, refreshed......

Wow, m lovin my life over Raipur!!!

P.S.: Enjoyed Italian food at Little Italy Ristorante over VIP road, 

friends at Raipur,do try it.

It all ends, When.......

When the stars over the sky desist to blink,
When all the minds ceases to think,

When the birds forget to fly,
When the water in the world runs dry,

When the circle transforms itself into a line,
When all the world loses the hope in divine,

When the winter frost feels like hot summer days,
When the colours of the rainbow fades away,

When the blooming ends, leaf begins to wither,
when none want to shed away their anger,

when the movement begins to culminate,
when the clock turns backward each date,

When all love dies and life begins to decline,
When all the responsibilities resign,

When heart starts agreeing with mind,
When emotions crawl over mankind,

When the humanity comes to an end,
When none can call someone a friend,

that is when, I will stop loving you!

P.S.: Dear, I m really gonna miss you a lot!

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Feel BETTER!!!

As I was off from blogspot, due to my increasing madness for blogs, I requested my friend RUPAL to write a post as a guest blogger. So here it goes,

 FEEL BETTER!!!

Feeling low?

Go to the terrace.

See the plane,

Flying above.

 

Feeling sad?

Think of past.

Think about the moment,

When you hurted a friend.

Feeling  like crying?

Go to ur mother.

Ask her to slap,

Again and again.

Feeling depressed?

Check your marksheets.

See how you,

Failed in your papers.

Feeling  ditched?

Go to your ex.

Ask her to,

Dump you again.

Feeling alone?

Visit  an island.

With only water,

And no sign of life.

Feeling irritated?

Then come to me.

And ask me,

To write again.

-Rupal

P.S.: This is her's first post ever on blogspot, leaving a comment on the same would definitely encourage her to become mad like me over the blogging world.

By the way, All the best for your exams friends!


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View from my WINDOW.

In the small room of mine, all I have is this abstract view.

Sitting beside my window,
in the morning daylight.
The sun rises from the mist,
with hope in my eye.

Sitting beside my window,
from dawn to dusk.
In the early morning chill,
Till the late afternoon lull.

Sitting beside my window,
watching the time passing by,
a casual gratitude,
an awaiting goodbye.

Sitting beside my window,
searching for my love.
Eyes on the horizon,
Hopes in heart.

Sitting beside my window,
watching friends fight.
In the rage of revenge,
unaware of wrong and right!

Sitting beside my window,
watching the downside widow.
Where a million dreams break,
in the evening neon glow.

Sitting beside my window,
when the city fall.
Where the people die,
at a person's call.

Sitting beside my window,
in the new moon night.
In search of stars,
In search of light.

Sitting beside my window,
with a wish to write,
A glimpses from my window,
in the limit of my sight.

P.S.: Got addicted to this blogger mania.Need to take a break from blogspot for a week. Cya later folks. Enjoy!

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Heart v/s Mind

Clock was struck on 11.55 P.M.

Heart: After 5 minutes she would be celebrating her birthday.

Mind : So what ? You are not supposed to wish her.

Heart: Hmmmm I think i should...

Mind: No...don't dare to...you are not talking to her for past three months . How can you call her now?

Heart: Arey she is my best friend. So what if I am not talking to her. We are still Best Friends.

Mind : Huh...it is all good to listen..she is not even your friend now.

Heart: She is and she must be waiting for my call.

Mind : How can you say that ?

Heart: I know it.


Mind : But why you deliberately want to hurt yourself ?

Heart: I will not get hurt. I will only wish her and cut the call.


Mind : Listen don't call her up. What if she even does not pick up your call ?

Heart: hmmmm don't know but I should do my part...rest as she wish.


Mind : And if she does not talk to you properly. You would only feel embarrass.

Heart: Stop it yaar. She would not do that.


Mind : *Silent*

Heart: Mind  is right. I should not call her. What if she does not like to talk to me. I should not and I will not.


Next day at 3.15 P.M.


Heart: But what if she is waiting for my call. She will get hurt because of me on her birthday and I don't want it. I should call her.


Mind : She must be enjoying with her friends and won't be even thinking about you.

Heart: Remember you did not call Nishita(another friend) on her birthday and she was sad because of you. You did apologize to her later. Now don't do the same mistake again.


Dialed the number 9821#######...


Mind : Don't do it Rahul..I am warning you.

Cut

Heart: What the hell...why are you so confused ? Call her now.

Again..

Calling...

*Tring Tring*

Vrinda : Hello..

Rahul: Happy Birthday !!

Vrinda : Hey Thank You. Now you are calling me. I was waiting for your call from last night. Even I went on orkut to check out the scraps from you. But no scraps. I was disappointed.

Rahul: Hmmm Actually I was so confused whether I should call you or not.

Vrinda : Why you should not? You are my Best Friend.

Rahul: I know...But..let it be yaar


Heart: :)

I : Thank God!! I did not listen to Mind.
Mind : Huh!

And at last my Heart once again won the battle with my Mind and I was on Safe Side :)

The LOVE LETTER that didn't worked.

Was cleaning my cupboard this morning, and suddenly came across one of the love letter that I wrote to a girl. From my extensive collection of such letters, I post one of my favourite letter.


I would always be there to hold
when you need a hand...
I would always be there beside
when you need a friend...

I would always make you laugh
when you're feeling down...
I would always snatch away your sorrows
to keep my beauty away from frown.

You would always be my everything
and everything I need...
I'd do anything for you
and to help you succeed...

You would always be my only girl,
my whole world, my all...
I would always be there to catch you
when you fall...

I would always help you,
when you need a guiding light...
You would always be my only girl,
whom I can hug tight... (^_^)


I would always be there with my shoulder,
when you need to lean, to dream.
I would always be with you, FOREVER ,
from now n till we live ever !!


I Love 'U' ________!!!

 P.S.: By the way, this letter never worked out for me. The girl bluntly said NO for this. I guess this was not too bad. Or I think the girl was weak with English( Next time would try with HINDI version) :P
Warning: Guys, please do leave a comment if you are using it for your girl!


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When you need SOMEONE.

When you need someone to ease your pain,
someone to forgive you again & again,
someone to answers all your questions,
someone to side you in every test.

When you need someone who holds the key to your problems,
someone who never need any thanks or sorry,
someone who is your only support, your only friend,
someone on whom you can depend.

When you need someone who cheer you up when sad,
someone who can see through your smile,
someone who stays at every step,
someone who helps you cross your every mile.


When you need someone who understands your every thought,
someone who helps to gather courage when life is blue,
and if you are still confused who this blessed soul is,
Look within yourself,
that someone is Y-O-U!!


P.S.: By the way, I don't think I have that someone within me, can anyone help me find that SOMEONE?


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Got dumped??? Don't Worry!

Partying hard,
Getting drunk,
Moving the body I’ve,
Shaking those useless thoughts away.

Dumping those tensions,
Stamping on them,
Picked up a glass of vodka,
Cheering now 'coz I'm single!

So what if she broke my heart,
M fixing it up!
Styling up my hair & putting on the new shades,
Hitting the party, rocking the floor!

Dumped my cell,
Stopped listening to those boring sad songs.
I Got up and looked at myself in the mirror,
Felt I have a life,
It's worth LIVING.

She never deserved me,
That stupid piece of shit!
I am not crying for her,
I am not dying for her.

Dancing to the music,
Partying all night.
Being happy, cause I'm single
Yet not available!



P.S.: I am still single (O_~)


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Trust Me!!!

Give your sorrow to me.
I'm here,
You're not alone,
Close your eyes and you'll see me.


Hold my hand,
Life's not easy,
But if we try together,
I'm sure we will succeed!


Don't be afraid to cry.
I'm here to wipe your tears,
You can lean on me,
I'll support you for as long as I am!


You told me to have faith,
You told me to be brave,
Now it our turn,
To lift up our head
And face it all!


I promise we'll get through.
I'm with you
Forever, and that's true.


I'll hold you close.,

You'll never be lonely,
Just have faith
And give me your hands.


I promise this won't last.
We'll get through this..
I promise, everything will be fine S-O-O-N.

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P.S.: Dear, I hope this would kick off the pace of our friendship and make it stronger.
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I AM THE LUCKY ONE. (^_^)

I always feel that I am the most lucky and special person on this planet. Now I am going to tell you 12 points which can prove it true...


1. I am a human being and most beautiful creation of God.

P.S.: Every soul did not take birth as human being. While some are born human, but doesn't act the same way.


2. I lives in the Most Beautiful planet of Universe "Earth".

P.S.:  Else, I would have being called ALIEN. :P


3. I am Indian and am proud to be an INDIAN.

P.S.: : Most beautiful, cultured country of the world. Mera Bharat Mahan!


4. I drink coffee and eat CADBURY's everyday.

P.S.: I have the best coffee with the best people on the earth and cadbury's sposored by friends :)


5. I have an ideal parents and one understanding sibling.

P.S.:  Everyone do not have.


6. I study in NIT RAIPUR, its among the most reputed engineering college of the nation.

P.S.: Some kids don't even have the basic education


7. I have Best Friends of the world. They help me in each and every step of my life.

P.S.:  Many persons don't have even one.


8. I am famous around my campus and known for good public relations.

P.S.: Everyone is not.


9. I am physically and financially fit.

P.S.:  While many persons are Below Poverty Line and handicaps.


10. GOD is always there with me.

P.S.:  Everyone does not believe it.


11. I can express my feelings in words

P.S.: While everyone finds it difficult and can't even do that.


12. I clear all my exams in just 5 hours of study on the night of the battle :)

P.S.: Many of them end up screwing instead of studying days and nights through out the semester


Here,  I can give you 100 reasons for ME being lucky like great personalities reading my blog , the way you are reading

Nowww, do you believe HOW-LUCKY-I-AM?????

(O_~)

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I wanna grow up once again!

Was listening to "GIVE ME SOME SUNSHINE" from 3 idiots and revisiting
my pleasant memories. Grabbed a pen and started writing down weird
instances straight from my kiddo years (in no particular fashion) with
a little help from SMILE (that's my old diary). This trip down those
crazy years of my life did manage to light up my faces. And even
though it made me go red in the face out of embarrassment, it was
definitely worth it.
So here I am sharing some anecdotes of my
'LONG-GONE-YET-NOT-FORGOTTEN-YESTERDAY' with you who have come to
become an essential part of my
'PRECIOUS-AND-NEVER-TO-BE-FORGOTTEN-TODAY'

• Where are the days when I used to play CONTRA & MARIO during summer holidays, with my brother over our new tiny video game which we treasured more then our soul.
  
  
• The days when I used to be really happy and top of the world for having more than 50 pieces of TAZZO (use to come inside the packet chips named CHEETOS, I guess) and also Boomer – big bubble Tattoos.
  
  
• OPEN HOUSE DAY, the day when I would go numb, dull, hoping to get my name on the board on the top rank. (At least once, but my teachers never wanted me to be happy)
  
  
• The days of Sankranti when I use to fly polythene tied to a string in my balcony and singing songs and shout loudly at the passing by people.(Well, I'm feeling embarrassed now)
  
  
• The days back when my dad used to come back from office with story books, chocolates and blank DIARIES without fail and how we used to rush down to help him carry stuff. Collecting diaries was my favorite obsession.
  
  
• The nights when I and my brother used to pretend that we are sleeping when dad arrives and then the whole process of waking us up and we playing pranks on him used to start.
  
  
• The days, when anyone can lure me for any task in exchange of a CADBURY chocolate.
  (You can still give it a try, I would do mANYTHING for the FRUIT & NUTS)
  
  
• I wish I could see my Mom asking Rs 20 everyday from dad for her auto fare even now.
  
  
• Miss those days when mom used to lock us in the house during the day, while she was away for work and how I and my brother used to get scared each time the bell rang. We both were given Rs 10 a day for staying alone at home and not disturbing neighbour.
  
  
• The days when I use to stop in front of the bicycle stores and ask mom to buy the blue bicycle for me. And my mom was smart; she knew that I am dumb. She always delayed the idea of buying the bicycle for the simple reason "Beta, aaj chutta nahi hai, kal aa kar lenge". Instead, hands me a Cadbury and walks me back home.
  
  
• Now I even laugh when I think of the days when my school bus used to take me back to school without dropping at the pick up stop in the absence of anyone from the babysitting. My teachers used to love watching me cry.
  
  
• I still remember the days when during my summer vacations, I used to visit granny's place and she used to apply some sort of weird oil over my head to ensure that my head remains cool. And me being me, used to cry every single time and complain about it. Now I miss that pampering a lot.

Why can't we make our life cycle all backward?
You should die first and get it out of the way. Then you go live in an old age home. When you get kicked out for being too healthy, go collect your pension. Then when you start work, you get a gold watch on your first day. You work forty years until you're young enough to enjoy your 'retirement'. You drink beer, party and get ready for High School. You go to primary school, become a kid; you play with no responsibilities. You become a little baby; you go back and spend your last 9 months floating with luxuries inside spa and room service on tap. And then finally, you finish off flowing as seminal fluid!!


I sincerely wish I could press the 'Rewind' button and live all those times again!
There are so many instances which come to mind when I think about those good old days. These were just a few of them. Saving the rest for another day, for another time, for another smile.



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IF I COULD.... I WOULD.

If I could go back in time and wipe my life clean,

I would

Just, so that I breathe my life again.

If I could shape off the edges that experience has acuminated,

I would

Just, so they don’t dig into you when I hold someone tight.

If I could look in the mirror and not see your face,

I would

Just, so that I can look into the eyes of the world.

If I could forget the hugs you gave me during exams,

I would

Just, so that my hands don’t shiver when, I hold the pen.

If I could erase that sleepless nights spent over the phone,

I would

Just, so that I can sleep without the memory of your touch.

 

If I could escape your words which echoes in my mind,

I would

Just, so that I can hear the whispering of my heart.

If I could overlook the mistakes we both have committed,

I would

Just, so that I can feel the sweetness of the coffee in my hand.

If I could change my past and mend the wounds,

I would

Just, so that I don’t write such poems in the midnight.

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